All I could remember was that 1st car accident (when I was in the car with him) days before he died. We were both sad that we couldn't get to the Monster Truck rally, we were both so excited to go. So when we were on our way, this idiot swerves in both lanes and hits me & Joey....the car was totaled, but we were alright. I was scared more than he was, because this was my actual first car accident that I NEVER want to get into again. Anyhoo, we got the car to a car repair shop and luckily, they fixed the car, because the front part was damaged on my side. But thank God I was okay....some bruises, but again I'm fine. Joey & I never made it to the Monster Truck rally, but we did get some dinner and just went home. Enough craziness from that night. The next day we were talking about our wedding..ya know "that stuff" he wanted to get a marriage license before anything big happened, some got that finished. When I looked at Joey, he looked so depressed like I could tell something was up. When I asked, he didn't wanna talk about it, which made me worry more about my best friend.
January 24th about 10:52pm ....that night. The night when I was supposed to go out to dinner & movies & min golfing.....it all changed tragically. My best friend, the love of my life died in a horrible car accident. He was 10 minutes away from my house. The crash happened around Waffle House across from the Knights Inn Hotel... his mom told me. She was distraught when she broke the news to me. Imagine how I felt with all of this. He was 24, he left me too soon. It's still not fair. I haven't been this sad since my 16th birthday when my mom died of breast cancer and leukemia...February 17th, 2006. How do I bounce back from this? How can I be strong when I feel weak in those moments? Questions that still need answering?
Last year, I got engaged, but this year....I'm taking off the ring.
I just want a peace of mind, but for some reason....I'm never gonna get that, am I? I'll be okay...I know I will, I'm just taking it one baby step at a time.