So we break each other down again,
his hand around my throat,
my sweat,
his skin.
Later,
we talk about life and how the darkness set in.
We get dressed and I whisper a goodbye, but,
he just holds me for the longest time.
kisses my nose,
kisses my chin.
There's tears in my eyes and I'm doing everything I can not to cry -
is this really the boy who left me broken and alone?
But the tears crept in and he just holds my face tightly against his,
looking me right in the eye.
"I'm sorry" he says,
over and over again.
I nod and kiss his forehead, his ear.
And when I reach for the door,
he's pulling me underneath him,
my clothes on the floor one more time.
the words "I love you" keep almost escaping our lips.
he throws an "I love.." here, biting his lip,
I let slip a "love you.." there, his mouth on my thigh.
And when I finally leave,
it's raining outside,
and he just holds me against his chest,
breathing me in,
two bodies warm in the cool rain.
It feels like months earlier,
happy and foolish,
and stupidly in love.
Like I never ran my mouth,
he never broke me in half.
None of this was ever meant to happen.
but it did, it just did...
We created. supernova again tonight.
Where the fuck do we go from here?
his hand around my throat,
my sweat,
his skin.
Later,
we talk about life and how the darkness set in.
We get dressed and I whisper a goodbye, but,
he just holds me for the longest time.
kisses my nose,
kisses my chin.
There's tears in my eyes and I'm doing everything I can not to cry -
is this really the boy who left me broken and alone?
But the tears crept in and he just holds my face tightly against his,
looking me right in the eye.
"I'm sorry" he says,
over and over again.
I nod and kiss his forehead, his ear.
And when I reach for the door,
he's pulling me underneath him,
my clothes on the floor one more time.
the words "I love you" keep almost escaping our lips.
he throws an "I love.." here, biting his lip,
I let slip a "love you.." there, his mouth on my thigh.
And when I finally leave,
it's raining outside,
and he just holds me against his chest,
breathing me in,
two bodies warm in the cool rain.
It feels like months earlier,
happy and foolish,
and stupidly in love.
Like I never ran my mouth,
he never broke me in half.
None of this was ever meant to happen.
but it did, it just did...
We created. supernova again tonight.
Where the fuck do we go from here?